i hate my life

oh gosh i really really hate myself!

i can't made any decision, and now? i trapped between my parent's busyness and my friends?

oke friends? i don't think that way..

I'M SOOO STUPID!

sometimes, i think that i better have no friends, but, i hate being alone too ya'know?

complicated feelings.

Even my classmates, friends at school, sometimes i just.. no, i didn't hate them, i just need more privacy for myself!

But in fact i hate being alone.

I want tell this story to my besties, but, ya.. i don't want to bother her much more, she has her own problems which yeah.. MORE MORE complicated than me. And another, he, he's not here, i just hoping he's here and yelling all day, make me laugh. Two of you. :(

k, that's the hint, why i can't stand this problem?

i'm just weak.. weak little brat

but i hate mature person.

I'm just an ordinary girl, but i believe my EXTRAORDINARY GOD!

i believe HIM please help me